I am constantly amazed at how my mind works. I have been doing this fast for 29 days now and have gotten in a pretty solid routine and the routine has helped my hunger stay relatively low. All of a sudden as I approached the last three days I have been hungry all of the time. I am eating the same food at the same time and doing relatively the same thing. The only difference is that as I have been getting closer to the end I have begun planning out how I will break the fast, which involves me thinking more and more about food. The more I have thought about food the harder it has been for me to keep up this fast with enthusiasm. At this point I am extremely sick of all of the food I am eating and have to choke it down, literally sometimes. I am almost dreaming about how normal food will taste, the textures and the flavors. I am curious as to how differently I will look at meal time now after doing this. This has been a really good process for me to go through and it has opened my eyes and mind up to things I have never noticed before.
On Sunday I was able to experience something that was really cool. It was communion! I have been a Christian for many years and have had communion many different times and it is always a very meaningful activity for me but I have never done communion while on a 30 day fast. It was incredible. It is hard for me to really explain what was going through my mind as the bread and juice were dispersed. It wasn’t the fact that I was able to eat/drink something new but it was the nourishing aspect of communion. In the Christian Reformed Church we believe that communion is not only a sign and a symbol of what Christ did for us on the cross but it is also something that nourishes our souls. That aspect of it never really hit home with me until Sunday because I have never been so under nourished physically before. This time as I took the bread and the cup I could feel it giving my body nourishment that was much needed. I think we tend to forget how “under-nourished” our souls are and therefore take advantage of the nourishing qualities of the Lord’s Supper.
When we finally realize how much help we need and that we can’t do it on our own, that is when we will begin to truly love God for who He is. He is not only the powerful God who created the entire universe but He is also the God who cares so much for us that He sent His son to die so that we can spend eternity with Him. It is impossible for us to do enough good on our own to get to heaven. We would have to live a completely perfect life! I don’t know about you but I mess up all the time, and that is how I know that I need God’s help. I hope everyone reading this will begin to understand who God is and how much He cares for us. He is offering us this free gift of salvation and all we have to do is realize that we can’t do it on our own, and that Jesus died on the cross for our sins, then put your true faith in Him and let him transform your life. If you are willing to do just that, you will be able to spend eternity in Heaven with the God who made the universe and the God who loves you more than you will ever know.